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また、「 」の会話の部分だけの訳になっていますので、
ご了承ください。
"I don't understnad a unpopular girl's negative feeling. Also, we cannot ignore others' appearances, to be
honestly."
"You stay the same as always!"
"Chika, I don't think you have to be twisted, even if you're not popular. You don't have to worry about it!"
"You told me not to worry, but it's impossible for me..."
"Anyone can find a person who has the same characters, personalities, hobbies, and so on, right? You should
get a crush on that kind of person. And if you really want to find him, you can make it."
"Do you think so?"
"If you are popular, so you should be happy, and on the other hand, if you're unpopular, you should be unhappy.
But it doesn't make any sense. This can't be brag as a matter of fact, but you know, I'm not happy."
"Thanks, Arisa. I feel like I should have confidence. BTW, can I ask you a different question? Wait, actually can I ask you a favor?"
"If that's about boys, give me a break, will you?"
"It's not about that. Can I come over to your place to sleep over someday?"
"Why? What are you gonna do?"
"I think I'm weird, but if I find a real close friend, I will go to the person's place to sleep over and vice versa.
Yes. I'd like to talk about a lot of things without sleeping until the next morning comes."
"I see, but in my place, my father gives me a headache and also very noisy."
"I'm popular among those who are much older than I."
"Oh, are you?"
"So, probably your father will get to like me."
"He's really weird. So you don't like him."
"It couldn't happen. Anyway, is that troublesome to you?"
"Okay, so, it might be a little early but can I be there on Sunday, 22nd of this month?"
"Sure. Why not."
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小説「トラウマ」(英語)
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*前回より、「 」(会話文)のみを記載させていただきます。(といっても、かなりのごぶさたですが・・・)
(前文を訳すのが飽きてきた、厭になってきた、できなくなってきたなどの理由ではありません。
実際役立つのが会話文だからです)
"Arisa, do me a favor. Just for today, please!"
"What's wrong? You look like it's the end of the world."
"I really want you to forget about the men wearing glasses."
"I don't care, but are you sure that you wanna hang around with the ugly man?"
"At any rate, please give me the man."
"I know this is not my business, but there are millions of men who are better than him. He works
at a bank, but you don't have to evaluate yourself so badly."
"Thanks, Arisa. I'm very happy to hear that."
"So, you should think about it once again."
"No, I don't care about the appearance. Also, since he works at a bank, I will be happy financially in the
future."
"You already think about the marriage or the future like that?"
"Pardon?"
"Chika. Love is one of the methods of marriage to you? So, the Go-kons you have joined so far are
just blind dates to you?"
"Yes, but I don't think I gave any trouble to you. So, it's no problem, is it?"
"Don't you have a feeling like "enjoy datings and youthful days" ?
"No matter how long we talk, I don't think you'll understand me."
"Why? I wasn't born yesterday, and I'm not a heartless woman."
"I don't mean that."
"What do you really mean?"
"You are always treated so well by men, right? And I'm a woman who is ignored by men. So you can't
understand how I feel."
"I'm sorry, but I hate myself for telling a lie. So, to be honestly ..."
"Go ahead. Tell me honestly as always."
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*今回より、「 」(会話文)のみを記載させていただきます。
(前文を訳すのが飽きてきた、厭になってきた、できなくなってきたなどの理由ではありません。
実際役立つのが会話文だからです)
"Dad, do you check in my drawers every day by any chance?"
"I really love you from the bottom of my heart. I can't live without you any longer."
"I really love you, but you're my dad. That's it!"
"Yes, I know that."
"Of course, I'm sorry for you. I really love you, so I have accepted sex with you."
"I wanna make you mine. That's it!"
"But you know, our relationship is absolutely extraordinary. We definitely are sick, and we don't have
any ethics view at all. So, dad, even if you tell me how much you love me, we can't get involved this way.
Also, I just want to have a boyfriend, which means I just want to love somebody normally."
"Arisa, as I told you a moment ago, I really love you. You are everything to me."
"Give me a break."
"So, I can't forgive what you have done today. If you do the same thing again from now on, I'll kill that guy."
"Dad. Can you do me a favor? Can you do something for me?"
"I'm not insane at all. So I'm not gonna go to a hospital."
"And as I told you before, you(Arisa) are mine. I'm not gonna let anybody touch you."
"Okay, dad. I got it. I'm gonna be yours forever, but instead of that, I want you to go to a hospital. I'm sure
you'll go insane, if I leave you just the way you are."
"Arisa, you sound like you are gonna escape from me, don't you?"
"Dad, I'm not gonna make you sad."
"Don't you push yourself to say such a thing?"
"I'm not gonna run or hide anywhere. I'm just worried about you. Unloess I force you to go there, you'll kill
someone because of delusion of persecution, even if I don't do nothing."
"But I just don't wanna stay in there."
"You don't have to worry about it. It's all up to your doc."
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My father looked like he had been waiting for me. He was drawing himself up when I just got back home.
"Arisa, where the hell have you been by the time like this?"
I couldn't stand that my father accused me of getting back home late. Before I opened the door, I had
checked the time. It was still before 8 o'clock.
I have no clue why he's upset, but I can easily figure out he feel that way at first sight. Even if I'm a little
far away from him, I know he has drunk a lot. Strong smell of sake stimulates my sense of smelling.
He usually drinks when he's at home, However, even though he likes sake, he's a weak drinker.
He gets drunk soon, and cannot talk fairly enough. Now he really looks like that.
"Dad. It's still 8 o'clock, isn't it?"
"Where the hell have you been Arisa?"
He's still asking me with the tone of anger.
After he finishes up talking, he got the hiccups and staggered.
"I have been at my friend's place."
"What did you do there?"
"What did I do? Not really ..."
Even if it's my sick father, I can't say "Sex" to him.
"Not particularly. Then I don't think that's any of your business."
"Are you turning defiant?"
"No, I don't mean that, but I don't think I have to tell you everything."
"You changed your underwear. You're wearing the one I bought for you the other day, right?"
At this time, I figure out that he realizes everything. Also, at the same time, I think he's not just
sick but also a crazy beast.
I got to have as much fear of him as I cannot describe anyhow.
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I didn't know the word "incest", but I think I admitted that the kind of thing is extraordinary.
In spite of that, I could do the things I feel good and make money. Making money is much better than
moral.
I just thought that way.
Also, I had no scruples to get laid anymore because of my father. On the contrary, I welcomed anybody.
In fact, I didn't get laid with anybody but him, although I had that attitude. He screwed up all the chances I
was going to have. Even so, I wanted to get laid with a lot of men and I had a really strong desire for sex.
Furthermore, I didn't have a concept of respect and trust to men at all. Arisa's(My) understanding is that
men are just sex partners. That is to say, they are just tools which makes me feel good. They're as
unrespectful and unworthy as that.
In spring of the second grade in my high school days, I had a quite different feeling about my father. I got a
boyfriend who is a university student, and made love to the different person from my father for the first
time.
At that time, I was shocked so much.
What's going on?
I could be sick.
Depite of the first sex with mhy boyfriend, I couldn't feel at all.
Compared to that, my father know my erogenous zone so much. He plays hard intentionally, and take
it slowly, and so on. At any rate, he shows me several techniques.
As a result, I feel like I'm coming and scream out loud.
After all, my boyfriend is just a university student. So, he should make love just like a child.
Also, I don't think he has plenty of room but also techniques at all.
No. That's not all yet. I don't feel his concerns at all.
He doesn't give a damn if I feel good and what I want. He just concentrated on what he is doing. When I
made love to him, I didn't get relaxed at all.
In the long run, I just got frustrated with the monet of making love to him.
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