やっぱり遠距離恋愛って・・・

難しいです。

最近東京に住む彼氏は大変なことにあって凄く苦しんでいます。こういう時こそ側にいたい。でも離れて住んでいるのでどんなに会いたくても会えるわけではないです。側にいられないんで彼を失望させていると感じて悲しいです。大好きな人なら苦しんで欲しくないし何もしてあげられない時も悔しいです。先月も試験の勉強で凄く苦しかったのに私は何もしてあげられなかったのです。一緒にいられたらすごし慰められたかもしれません。その時の彼のオンライン日記には「誰も頼ったりする人がいません」って書かれていました。それを読んで涙が出ました。遠くから支えるのって無理なのかなと思いました。でも相手を支えられない恋愛関係ってあまり良くないですね。だから遠距離恋愛は難しいですよね。＞＜
　
Long distance relationships are deffinitely not easy. Recently my boyfriend who lives in Tokyo has beeing going through something pretty difficult. At times like these I really wish I could be with him. But since we live so far away from each other we can't see each other whenever we want. Because I can't be with him when he really needs me I feel like I'm letting him down. If you love someone, it's always hard to see that person hurting and it hurts you to know that you can't do anything for them. Last month he had to study super hard for his finals and so he was getting so stressed out that he felt like throwing up and his stomach hurt all the time. If I could have been with him, maybe I could have helped him feel a little better. Around that time he wrote in his online diary that there was no one that he could rely on. When I read that I almost cried. I care about him so much and I want him to be able to rely on me when he needs me, but I'm not in Tokyo so I guess he can't. This is why long distance relationships are so hard. It's hard to be there for someone when you're miles and miles away...

Sato, I'm sorry I can't always be there with you, but I'll be here to talk to you anytime you need me. I hope you feel better soon.　Ｉlove you.