外国人の気持ちの描写。。。

Have things changed?

It has been more than 3.5 years since I came back from Japan.

However, all I can say is.... The inner pain never become any lesser.....

Now I know how painful it is when you have trusted someone 100% and being betrayed for no reason at the end.

On and off, during the night.... Tears still dropped from my eyes for no reason, due to loneliness? or the hurt feeling of betrayed? I really don't know, sometimes life experience is controlling my emotion when my conscious is weak, Anyway, thanks to you, I have learned not to trust anymore no matter how close I think we are. Someone sleeping next to you every night can just turn back and say sorry I don't know you.

九型人格分析

九型人格分析

第五型	智慧型、觀察者、思想型、理性分析者、思考型  85%
第四型	藝術型、浪漫者、自我型、憑感覺者  75%
第二型	助人者、全愛型、助人型、成就他人者、博愛型  75%
第七型	快樂主義型、豐富型、活躍型、創造可能者、享樂型  67%
第八型	領袖型、能力型、挑戰者、保護者、權威型  67%
第九型	和平型、和平者、和諧型、維持和諧者  62%
第一型	完美主義者、完美型、改革者、改進型、秩序大使  57%
第六型	忠誠型、忠誠型、尋找安全者、謹慎型  55%
第三型	成就者、事業型、成就型、實踐型  33%

Another Year.....

2012 just around the corner. How are you?
The last time I called you I felt that you didn't even want to have any connection with me anymore so I decided not to sms nor email you for any kind of reason just in case I may distract your life.
It's ok anyway, I could understand that and I decided not to disturb you in any way as I can.

R, Wish you a happy new year and a bright future ahead. All the best.

Yi

It has been a year....

Time really flies...
It has been a year since I came back from Kyoto.
Yes, one year, one whole year.
It hasn't been easy for the past one year. Nothing has gone the way I wanted, nothing as I wish.
I think I am running out of LUCK and I wish I could recharge my luck somewhere. If you know of a place, please let me know, no matter where it is, I will try to find it.

However, I have learned to grow up and I have to anyway. I have to go back to the reality and accept my destiny. The pain is always here but I have tried hard to ignore it. Nevertheless, it hasn't faded away and it will never. This is not what I want, but I am incapable and helpless.

I started dislike darkness, afraid of night. It makes me lonely and gloomy. But I know one day I can defeat the dark side and find a bright road. Just give me more times, I am sure I can make it.

I am still lost. I've tried to asked myself, do I really know what is LOVE? I think I don't and I wonder has it ever existed in human life or it is just a lie in the world. No matter what, I think Love is not something I deserved. I just have to accept this and go on with other things. I don't know what they are but I will try.

I don't like crying to sleep, but how many nights I have to go through this painful step before I can fall to sleep. Sometimes, I'd dream of a superhero who rescued me from the dark side. That morning I'd wake up with shiny smile because the superhero had make my day.

People may think living in your own dreams is not good, but if no one can make you smile you have to make yourself laugh isn't it?!

Life is not easy but we just have to move on as this is our responsibility. Wish me luck if you are my friend.

R. I wish you all the best in life and I will always love you. Take care.

Yi.

香港,西貢 Hong Kong Sai Kung

We once had coffee from 7/11 in front of the Starbucks.
We used to take photo in front of the pier.

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2009.10.26 Sunny @ SaiKung, Hong Kong 28℃